feeling beauty, being beautiful, it's all up to you

i started this idea of writing this post when i started to got to college. Few months before my college started I was ill for nearly a whole week, feverish ,sluggish, headaches u could imagine that. I slept the whole day doing nothing the whole week.I can't concentrate, i was too ill to pick up my violin and play a note.After i recovered when the one week illness, the worse outbreak from my face started.It was painful ,drying,sore and reddish.It was literally the worse state that I have ever seen on my face.Frankly speaking, my acnes had just cleared out recently and the outbreak was so bad that I cried everytime I walk near the mirror. People started to ask what happened to my face,i know they were not teasing me but I was so moody that I didn't want to care about them and sometimes I even act rudely to them. I was too intimidated and I was like crying several days in a week. Than,i asked somebody this question,Do you think appearance matters a lot? The answer was a word that i have never expected "confidence" is the thing that matters a lot.Woman who have confidence is the most beautiful woman.I was wonder struck. I was a girl with this ,why let the facial complexion bring me down? I should celebrate my inner side of beauty and i started to be positive towards myself. I go to a derm and follow his prescription , i started to take care of my face in a better way, i change my diet, i exercise a lot, i drink lots of water, cut down fast food. Rather than concentrating on my face, I throw myself entirely for my Grade 8 violin practice session. I pick up my reading habit again and between a very short of time i read lots of books. But still when I got to colllege, my complexion hasn't clear off. But this time , i choose a different approach. I smile. I try to embrace the other part of me. I still keep healthy lifestyle outside and still piously take good care of my skin.When the days gone by, my acnes subsided and my complexion was clear.My hair grew longer and i can tied them up into a ponytail. Sometimes when i looked into the mirror, i will ask myself. Who is this inside the mirror? It's me. And i am no longer controlled by the beauty perspective of others. When I saw others down because of this, I'll offer help by telling them to see a derm to seek professional advice rather than buying loads of skincare product which you don't know which one is suitable for you. Change the lifestyle and so on.I got positive feedback and I was happy that I could help them by my experience. The lifestyle changing was crucially important as it changes you inside out. Exercising counts as it really made you feel better about yourself. I am a normal girl so i do fuss around with makeup and girly things. Rather putting up a mask by using makeup, I had find someway for myself to pick me up every morning when i put my makeup and cologne on. sometimes i put on lil bit of rouge,some lip color or eyeliner. Though it was a really small step but it let me feel better of myself . But the most important thing is your confidence,you should believe you're the one and only of youself that other's cannot replace.That's the core of everything. I hope this will motivate other girls out there which had the same problem that i had before. Just change your mind and solve this problem.You will see a much better you and trust me ,you will be super confident about yourself in the rest of your life after this experience. You could find your real friends or even people that really cares a lot about you that they will never judge you by your appearance but telling you to celebrate the inner part of you.
Hope we girls could feel beauty, being beautiful all the time of our life.